Unscripted

fauvists:

So its been awhile, but really nothing worth mentioning has occured…i mean i am back at college and am trying to keep up but already feel as if i am drowning.  Thank god that I have an amazing roomie who is willing to put up with my bullshit.  I have fallen for a boy that can never love me back as he is from a culture that is all about the custom and not about the person.  So i am trying to stop creepily stealing his sweaters and imagining that he actually would ever want to date me….yeah thats not gonna happen.  I have two jobs on campus now and am trying to work hard and keep things together. To be honest though I feel as if i am falling apart at the seams as I watch others move forward and I feel stuck in the mud…I don’t understand why i feel like this, maybe its because i am pms-ing, maybe its because i feel unprepared and am ready to be doing something besides just sitting around and feelng like shit…i don’t even know what i want in life…i am so tired